Letting go.

Let's do this.

Even when this seems paradoxical on the surface, - how could you ever possibly want anything but happiness, - on a deeper level, there is something in you that is making it so. To transform your life you first must understand what is keeping it the way it is.

The first step is acknowledging that your expectations were and still are unrealistic. Making demands and counter-demands won't change a thing. These demands must be seen for what they are which is not a pathway to "fairness" or "justice". Instead, they are expressions of resentment, betrayal, disillusionment, rage and anger - all valid feelings but not very productive ones. Feel them. Acknowledge that their cause is unrealistic expectations, anger and grief.

Then second step is accepting that you are partially responsible for this situation. if you let go and stop making demands your partner will never meet, you can stop punishing each other. In fact, there will be no reason to punish each other. but if you hang on to your anger and grief, it is you who wises to continue this negative relationship. In other words, even if your partner is the biggest jerk on the planet, it is you who is choosing to stay in this relationship. Accept you are an active player and move on to the final step.

Once you acknowledge that your demands and expectation are unrealistic and accept your half of the responsibility for sustaining this relationship, all you need is permission to let go. So give it. Then with no effort at all, a kind of 'falling away; of the downward spiral occurs as you find yourself moving up and out. Tears flow as you grieve the finality of this action and loss this moment represents. But at the same time, a window opens in your heart and life energy begins to flow in and out again. 

Clearly letting go is not about giving up something. It's about getting something back - namely, your life, your true self. You are no longer bound in a relationship that was pulling you down, fettered by unrealistic expectations, self-anger and unresolved grief. Now unrestrained by chains of your own devising, you are free to become the authentic person you are, reclaiming the joy that is your birthright.

So liberating and fulfilling is this moment, you ask yourself, "why did i wait so long?". I'm glad this day finally came into my life (thanks to you). Rational is a way to be. 

p.s : spitting is not so cool after all. 

Love,

fcc.

:)

I lay in my dark quiet room trying to diminish the endless thoughts that run through my head. I look to my left at the clock resting on my nightstand. 3.01 a.m. I let out a small sigh and look back up at the ceiling. I examine a small thin crack in the wall that extends itself to the corner and disappears. I hear Raggles’s short, quick inhales and exhales of breath as he lies peacefully in her crib. I feel a tiny breeze sneak in through the window above my head and it sends a chill down my body. 

I belive that the mind, body, soul, and heart are all different, and equally as beautiful, yet all connected. I believe in soul mates, a soul does not want to be alone and hungers for the fulfilment it needs and endlessly searches out its mate.....whether this mate is a friend or lover, it makes no matter. I believe that there are more than one "soulmate" but only one that will carry through eternity

I have this philosophy about life, "live life without regrets". Best advice I ever heard was "You either get it or you don't". Life is too precious; it's too short to carry grudges, because they end up only making you miserable. Don't let others tell you how to be, only you know inside yourself who you are, and what you want out of life. For me love and happiness are the most precious things in the world to be surrounded by love and happiness eternally. It is the little things in life that you have to come to realize around you that are more important than material things. They are there, and they are free, you have to just look for them, they are in front of you and all around you. 

No regrets, just love, just you and me.

I love you..

Love,

Drake fool.

To love again.

To love again.

The love of life is, in general, the effect not of our enjoyments, but of our passions. We are not attached to it so much for its own sake or as it is connected with happiness, as because it is necessary to action. Without life there can be no action -- no objects of pursuit -- no restless desires -- no tormenting passions. Hence it is that we fondly cling to it -- that we dread its termination as the close, not of enjoyment, but of hope.

In Everyone’s life there are different experiences; one of those is the first love. Love is a passionate feeling for another person that can be felt in a variety of shapes and size. It was more romantic and emotionally uplifting than any other experience I had ever been through.

I met her when I had my first  Frisbee training with her-she was in the team, when I first saw her; she seemed me a quiet and good girl and I was also told that she’s taken(hope was shattered right at that time). It started one fine day in August. Her name is Joeyee. She had a smile that would make any man fall to his knees (I would die for her smile); I liked her soft voice, her character, her behavior, her appearance, how she thought, her spontaneous, and her straight forwardness. 

It was during w5o5 finals. The ambiance of the game, how she asked me for my pink stool, I can literally draw it out. Most importantly the feeling that was flowing through my entire body was just overwhelming experience.  Prolly no words can ever describe how beautiful the feeling was.  

It's been a while. This has to be more than a crush, more than just a fleeting attraction. Love cannot be won like a teddy bear at the fair; cannot be stolen like a rare painting from a museum in the dead of night. The real love comes first from within, not from anyone else. I’ll wait even if it takes days, months, and years.

No matter what happens, no regrets, just love. 

Love,

Drake foo.

Drenched.

Not going to write anything in this post! Just close your eyes and listen.

I'm no longer able to hold it back...

4 months later

4 months later...

I’m in the boat right now and not sure what to make of this unexpected ‘how are you?’ from you. I feel good; I even have a slight smirk on my face. But then it hits me, and my minds start to work on high speed to process all these new thoughts because you are the last person I can ever think of to give me a text. 

A million apologies won't ease the pain in your heart cause I truly understand time heal all wounds, but the scars remain. Esther, I'm sorry. I'm really glad you took the initiative to text me! It’s been long since I talked to you. In fact, I miss those times where we could just talk about everything and anything. I missed you. I've always cared and there will random moments where you just pop-out in my mind. 

Anyway, I hope that you are doing well or fine by now! I am sure he treats like nobody-else and definitely a much better guy than me. All the best in your upcoming papers! 

Loves,

Drake foo.

Everything Falls Apart

Everything falls Apart

There is no question we live distracted lives. It’s the natural result of living in front of screens. We sit in front of our computer screens, trying to work, but email notifications and breaking news pop up, leading us away from the task at hand. We talk and browse the internet on our phone, all the while Push notifications pop up and tell us of some breaking event that demands our attention. We try and watch tv, but even the places we look for information are filled with breaking news updates and a scrolling ticker at the bottom.

The challenge that we all face is in rightly prioritizing the important over the immediate. While being involved in social media and living in a connected world are not inherent evils, the results on our relationships can be overwhelming. Sigh I always tend to prioritize the immediate over the important.

Life is all about choices, touching others, and being touched by the acts of others each day. It's about who we really are. It's about finding our true selves and being honest about what we feel and what we believe every hour of every day. I believe in fate. It is absolutely important that each of us never surrender those things we feel are right and true within ourselves. To do so would only leave us feeling like we've betrayed the foundations of who we are. Never surrender the honesty of your hopes, your dreams, or your values, no matter what anyone says. In the end, the person you really have to live with isn't your parents, your friends, or those who pressure you into doing things. It's YOU. No regrets after all and no turning back. I'm really glad to know you. 

                                                                          

No regrets.

                                                                                                                                                                   

                                                                                                                                                                      Loves,
                                                                                                                                                                     Stolen heart.

Jealousy.

A jealous husband doesnt doubt his wife, but himself.

Never in my life I doubted you. You told me that I am someone with great qualities, but yet I am feeling inferior over myself. Things like my physics. In another way, I like to compare especially among your friends. Just give me some time.

It is really not easy to face a jealous partner and a relationship can get really tired if one always have to explain and convince the other party not to get jealous. Words will not able to express how sorry I am for this, and i have profound regret and sorrow for the multitude of mistakes and harm I caused. I am s_rry.

It's time to let go all these unnecessary feelings. As I cherish you..





a lot.

Is finally ended.

I thought I would be jumping up and down insanely after my final paper ended on last friday. But no , I am wrong . It's because the relationship I am having after 2 years and 4 months is at the verge of breaking. I am sorry for being so mean to u, I think that's the only way we can solve the issues we having peacefully without hurting u more.

Yes I used to be the happiest man on earth, but now No. I felt more like an idiot which dont appreciate his gf anymore. I really dunno what to do and what should i do anymore, cause I really dunno what am I thinking. I am not as simple as i thought. I am sorry. Sorry for letting u down again. Sorry.

Most probably this will be the last post i write on this blog.

Signing off as Fcc.

Random thoughts .

• What the fug is Man.United doing again ?
  
  I am speechless.
  
  
• What's your favourite show?

Mine? haha russell peters.

• What friends are for?
  
  I shall go really precise in this issue. Not today but someday. HAHAHAHA
  
  
  
• What will u do with 7.5millions of money ( RM ) ?
  
  HAHAHAHA..curios about why am i asking this question? I shall go into details in the next coming post since there's limited time now.
  
  
  

DONT EAT AND SHIT AT THE SAME PLACE. ^_^

- originally quoted from a friend-

Okay okay enough of rubbish. bye guys.

I am sorry.

I am really sorry.

I am sorry that i failed to keep my promise.

I am sorry to my parents that i didnt really work hard in this semester.

I am sorry dear , for being a jerk.

I am sorry for being a bad boyfriend.

I am sorry for being a racist.

I am sorry guys for whatever bad shits i done to u.

I do seek for your forgiveness cause i am trully sorry.

Lol

Wednesday , January 07 2008- I know u guys have been wondering where did i go in these few months due to extremely dead blog. Okay one of the main reason was I am lazy . Second it was because ASSIGNMENTS and EXAMS . WELL i guesss I am just running away from the fact that i am super lazy .

Umm there's nothing special happen on me thou , besides my birthday and my cousin's marriage.

Okay this is awesome. My cousin's marriage. Before i proceed to my cousin's marriage details , i would like to give some details about Segamat because that's the place i attended for my cousin's wedding dinner . WHAT IS SEGAMAT? WHICH STATE IT IS SITUATED? SEGAMAT NICE AR?

Segamat is a town , i would prefer with the word a small town . Segamat is situated in Johor.

Segamat is kinda " okay " * gaps *. Okay here's a picture of Segamat.

why do people get married? People get married because they love each other . It is easy to see how love and marriage relate to one another. The way most people define love and marriage, they seem to go hand-in-hand. Why do people get married for love? The common thread between the two is that they are meant to last forever and that seems reason enough for some people to get married.

Anyway congratulation Cyann kor kor :) here's a picture of the new marriage couple.

padan kan :D?

okay i shall not go thru the details of the marriage process cause it's boring. I will straight proceed to all my cousins.

The first i would like to introduce is Kelvin foo. The youngest and cutest in Foo's family.

Cute right? he is only 3 years old apparently but he can speak like an adult with awesome wordiness + english :l ( ang mo tone ). He's super meaty and heavy :l not to mention fat but is just too heavy for a 3 year old kid ( about 10 + kg ).

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next,

ME and chok tong.

ABOUT ME? i dont think i need to introduce myself rite ? lol. Sitting right next to me was Chok tong. He's gonna study architecturing , a future architect and the first architect in the foo's family after so many engineers :l. I think he will be succesful in architect career. Oh beside Chok tong it was my granny :) .

continue esok nak tidur ni :s

erm random thoughts !

Holidays ending :) something to share

WEDNESDAY , 24th September 2008 - Okay When the daylight is gone from the sky,And we're sitting here by the log fire,I think how lucky I was to have found you.I did not know the true meaning of love,That is until you walked into my life…

That was to be the luckiest day of my life honey,I now know how to receive love, and returnIt with a passion unknown to me before.When we are together it is like a racing wildfire,Burning hot and fast, with smoldering embers reaching out everywhere, but so hard to find…

This I do promise you baby, no matter whatI will always be here by your side.If you should fall, it'll be me who picks you upNot a stranger, or a passer by, if youHave to cry, you will have my shoulder to cry upon;Then, when you laugh, I'll laugh along side of you…

My love for you erupts like a volcano,Always hot and never fully to die or go out,For you have shown me what it's like to love again.If I should ever do you wrong, don't be afraid to tell me, for I will fix it, not tomorrow but todayThis is my undying pledge, which I give to you alone…!

I will never forget what have u done for me , to be with me when i was in the most crictical part of my life , to cry with me , to laugh with me , to be my everything..i love you michelle :)..

Hmmm 2nd semester is starting , i guess i wont be able to see u so often anymore but u'll always stay in my heart..

what's working like ?

Tuesday ,12th August 2008 - I am so so so sry that i didn't update my blog for like 1 month ):..I am really seeking for u guys forgiveness. Especially my dear. But there's always a reason behind the scene :]..the reason is because FCC aka me IS WORKING ! hmm..yea i am working as an office boy in secret recipe which is located not far away from my house (about 2-3 minutes ).

Every morning i wake up at 8 am to get myself ready. But most of the time i will be feeling very sleeepy. My job starts at 8.30 till 5.30. Hah but in between there's a lunch break from 12.30-1.30. So i walk back home and enjoy my meal watching television etc etc , last but not least a nap :] which i think is kinda short . NO is very short -__-. What to do ): , tak de duit ma T.T.

Frankly speaking I dislike working there :x . it's either the environment or the people but is the job scope e.g filling, key in data into the computer, counting punchcards etc etc. I really feel like quitting sometimes but I tell myself then what's the point working so hard for the past 2 weeks ?I will quit when the time comes and which isssssssssss...22nd of August 2008 ! Hahaha is ngam ngam 1 month :X..

So there's all about my working daily routine..hmmm although the salary is kinda little but at least i learn something very important which is # money doesn't comes easy # * winnk*

Oh ya before ending my post :] , something for my dear

hehe i am so so so proud of my relationship :]

Me and my dear 18th anniversary was on the 8th august 2008.

which is on the opening ceremony of olympic :x

So do i consider myself lucky ? :]

Happy 18 th month anniversary dear :D

I do hope we will go through thick and thin together and happily - forever

GB'S BACK IN ACTION.

This blog is so eff-ing DEAD.

Super cannot tahan already. So, I'm here again to give a "breath of life" to this blog!

Breath of life. as in. lame jokes xD

1) What is the angriest newspaper in Malaysia?

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Rage (The Star).

2)What is the hottest newspaper in Malaysia?

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The Sun

3) What is the brightest newspaper in Malaysia?

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The Star

So now, your turn to answer.

What is the most racist newspaper in Malaysia?

Love,
GB (:

A happy outing :]

Saturday ,12 th July 2008- YEAP YEAP YEAP ,IT'S HOLIDAY !! I just finished my semester 0 last friday..hmmmmmm after a 1 week battle with loads of calculations x.x , I am freeeee like a bird flying where ever i like !

Before my holiday , i planned an outing with my dear :D which is Today..alright we watched hellboy 2 which i think is kinda over-rated. Hmmm if rating from 1-10 i will give a 6.5 :]..

hell boy 2

After the movie , we met up with adrian , kha chun , austen and his friend. We had our lunchie at vivo. [ IS ALL CHEEESEEEE , omg i dont eat cheese :( ( except for pizza hut's hawaian chicken )* speaking within my heart * ] BUT , thx god there's FISH AND CHIPS :]..

Here some pics taken after my lunchie :'x ,Before that let me make things clear ! dont say i act cute or something ! Is just some random emotions of mine :]..

My babe :]

And then...there goes my day :']

p/s : thx dear :] i love you and happy 17 th month anniversary. :]

something true about me

Scorpio - July 11, 2008Today you may feel a powerful urge to get out and be with your friends, dear Scorpio, even if nothing definite is planned. There won't be any pressing reason for this, as you shouldn't be feeling particularly lonely. You'll just want to indulge in the light conversation and good-hearted banter that you always share with others. Someone may have some exciting news to relate. Get out of the house, go to your favorite meeting place, and have fun.

I think my favorite meeting place is nottingham with edison, adrian, kha chun, lawrence, austen, and esmond..maybe i do miss nottingham..hmmmmmmm..

You are still my forever champion- Roger Federer

A truthful moment - 2007 wimbledon final

Roger Federer retained his crown as king of Wimbledon, beating young Spanish prince Rafael Nadal to secure his fifth consecutive title,
Roger Federer, 2007 Gentlemen's Singles Champion.

but..

2008 wimbledon final

Roger Federer looks on in despair as his Wimbledon reign comes to an end losing the final to Rafael Nadal. Nadal won a captivating match in close to five hours of sensational tennis of the highest quality.

Monday , 7th July 2008 -Roger Federer described his Wimbledon final defeat by Rafael Nadal as the most painful loss of his career, but vowed that he is not about to give up his world number one status to his great rival.

A true champion is not only he who wins all tournaments, but he who looses with greatness, dignity, and after giving away all that was possible for him to do.... Roger Federer, a true champion

something from me to roger :]

Keep the faith, don't lose your perseverance and always trust your gut extinct. You are always my champion.

missing you..

Sunday, 6th July 2008 - Alright alright sry for my late update again :( , dont blame me because i am having my final term of examination. But after this final term , i will have 3 months of holiday * wink *..but..i am feeling sad in the meantime..i miss dear :(..it has been 3 weeks we never see each other..

When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I'm with you. It makes me forget the distance and capture you..

i am not alone, but i am lonely without you..

:]..


dear dont angry me :( cause i put this pic

ps : is getting late , i go zhuo zhu de :]..

a hot day

Thursday ,26th June 2008 - To say that this particular day was a hot day would be a grave understatement. It is on the days like this that bushfires start, the day when people die of heartstroke, the days you weren't at school. Oh well , the journey from TTS2 to my university i felt like i'd been walking in the desert for days. As every agonizing second crawled by a snails pace , i was getting thirstier and thirstier. My lips was dry , and my throat was sore and begging God just a single drop of anything.( but thx god i was accompanied by lawrence and kha chun )

About 15 minutes of walk under the hot sun we " almost reach the university " but before that there's a going up hill road. The part i felt like traversing through a corridor full of thick jelly, as if i was in slow motion, but i didnt stop. After reaching the top of it , i could feel the perspiration everywhere, like a fever that engulfs your whole body.

I kept going, and saw my own reflection in the metal of the sink. I could already taste that sweet life juice running down my throat and into my belly. I placed my hand on the little handle. I forced it down. The shooting water straight up at me was like heaven * ahleluya *